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[08 Mar 2006|11:41pm] |
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Today, i applied for college and hopefully i can get enough money to start this next quarter. I want to major in music and minor in business. I would like to play music for a living but that goal in kind of unrealistic, it's nice to dream though. I love music and going to school for it not only can give me a career down the road but can also teach me a lot and that knowledge will be very useful for writing music with my bands. I've been thinking a lot about life today and where i was two years ago and where i am now. Crazy how life changes so fast, it's weird. I just want to be happy. I just got back from Shari's with Brandon. We had a real good talk about life and music. Also, if you haven't met the new manager at the Canyon Sharis you need to go. He's the one with a pimp walk, he is hilarious and very nice. Shannon and I are not together right now and it seems as though we won't be getting back together this time. I love her very much but we fought about such stupid things when we were together. Maybe this is for the best. I probably will not be in a relationship for a long time. I need to focus on me and my life for once. I need to get my mind off her. I hope everything works out with school, that would be amazing and would help me get my mind off everything bad. I am happy with the music i'm making in both bands that I'm in right now. Overall, I'm not too happy with the way my life is. Maybe school will make me feel better. I don't know. Oh man, capgun reunion shows will be fun and weird. We practiced the other day and my voice hurt so bad after we were done. I had to remember how to scream like that again. It was nice seeing Jake though, he is a real nice guy and has always been a good friend to me.
Also, Some By Sea did very good last night and I'm happy they are signed to a big label now, they deserve it.
It is snowing and it's basically spring, I think I'm going to go take a long walk in the snow and listen to my ipod. I'm having trouble deciding which cd to listen to though. hmmmmmmm. I got it, I'm going to listen to Antony and The Johnson's - I Am a Bird Now.
Goodnight.
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| Cadaver Graye |
[07 Mar 2006|11:38am] |
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Hey, Cadaver Graye has three songs posted now if anyone wants to check them out.
www.myspace.com/cadavergraye.
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| Cadaver Graye! |
[10 Feb 2006|04:53pm] |
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Constantines - Thieves |
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Everyone should come check out my new project at the Java Jam tonight
Java Jam-
13125 Pacific Avenue S Tacoma 98444
Cost:Free
We play at 7.
This is a benefit show for the coffee shop. Coffee is good. So Is Tea. And Hot Chocolate.
If you wanna check out what we sounds like visit www.myspace.com/cadavergraye and add us to your friends list.
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| Narnia was a bad choice. (but i love it) |
[08 Dec 2005|08:41pm] |
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Harvey Danger - Wine Women and Song |
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I'm going to see Narnia at 12 and i have to wake up for work at 5 30. It's a bad choice but i love it. I miss Shannon and i don't see her much anymore so i'm excited to spend time with her. wooo.
I am gonna need so much red bull for work tommorow damn.
It says on the can:Improves Concentration. hahaha.
haha.
I love Shannon.
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[05 Nov 2005|11:38pm] |
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Pinback |
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I feel like writing but i don't know what to say. I never do.
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[11 Oct 2005|09:34pm] |
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Shiny Toy Guns - Don't Cry Out |
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Shiny Toy Guns and Bob Mould are playing right now and it's 21+, i wish i was there. :( Shannon and I have been together for a year and a half today and it's amazing. I love you Shannon.
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[08 Oct 2005|08:05pm] |
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Broken Social Scene - 7/4 (Shoreline) |
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Today was Shannon's first day working for MAC. wooooooo. Good job baby. I Love you. Today my new band practiced and we wrote three new songs. Oh man, the capgun took like a million years to write songs. We were a band for over a year and we had like 6 songs. lol. It's so much better being in a band that writes stuff so fast. Maybe we just have really good musical chemistry together? I dunno. I'm excited. Tonight is Dan's party, that should be fun. I miss Shannon, she works too much and so do I. Well, that's about all I have to say.
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[15 Aug 2005|09:52pm] |
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Feist - Mushaboom |
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SHANNON BOUGHT ME A MIDI KEYBOARD FOR REASON!!!!!!!!!!!! It's so amazing. My mellow/electronica dance party project is so much better now. I can write much better stuff now, I'm happy. I got a job working with a guy that owns a remodeling company so i get to build decks and stuff. He tells stories about how he was in the vietnam war which could not be remotely true. People that make up stories are so funny. It is very entertaining. I miss Shannon, i like working but i don't get to spend as much time with Shannon and it sucks. Also, since i got the Midi Keyboard I have been so busy i haven't been able to write much which is frustrating because i want to finish the album I'm working on so bad. Shannon I Love you. March of the penguins is good. um today at the bus stop i saw a gangster guy with a really big Gangsta Home depot jacket. Is HOME DEPOT gangster now?? What the heck. I have also encountered two bearded ladies while using public transportation to and from work. I thought the girl from Le Tigre had facial hair. That was nothing compared to this.
Shannon, you are amazing. We need to hang out soon.
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[29 Jul 2005|09:43pm] |
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every time i die - bored stiff |
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i can't get you off my mind. this is so hard but its for the best. i need to get out of the house.
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[29 Jul 2005|08:40pm] |
I‘m, I‘m looking for a pill,
Something to ease my will,
You, You may not realize,
When it‘s done or why,
But it may be the best thing, it may be the best thing.
Ohhhhhhhhhhhh and it may be the best thing.
Pulsing,
With a familiar pain.
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[29 Jul 2005|02:17am] |
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I really can't describe it. |
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Sufjan Stevens - The dress looks nice on you. |
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So i have alot of decisions to make as of now and it's hard. Alot is going on right now in my life and i need to get it all out soon. This is tough.
I can see alot of life in you.
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| Life. |
[29 Jul 2005|12:07am] |
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Manitoba - Kid you'll move mountains. |
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Ever feel like everything in your life comes crashing down? Everything bad that could possibly happen all happens at once and i can't take it. Sometimes it seems like things will never be better. I don't like this feeling.
I wish things could be okay but they never are.
why?
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[10 Jul 2005|12:24am] |
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Aqualung - Brighter Than Sunshine |
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I am wearing your pajama pants and they are pink.
Get online Shannon.
I am bored.
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[09 Jul 2005|11:47pm] |
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thee silver mt. zion memorial orchestra |
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Last night Shannon and I went to Tara's birthday party and it was awesome. We went down a big hill on snow blades with laundry detergent. It was funny. Although every time i went down i fell but i didn't care because it made me smell super clean. We had to leave because a cop came and said the park has closed. He was really nice though and was all like "you can do a few more runs first." I think he wanted to do it too. The stars looked really beautiful yesterday too. Not as beautiful as SHANNON though. I love you Shannon. I didn't get home till 1 in the morning and today i started work at 9 and i got off at 11. That's 14 hours. I am soooooooo tired. I didn't see Shannon today. This has been the first day i haven't seen Shannon at all for a long time. I'm sad. I work again tomorrow at 6 a.m. I am going to be so tired. Shannon, we should hang out after you get off work tomorrow? Maybe go to Family Guy night???? I miss you very much. We need to hang out. I miss your beautiful face.
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[07 Jul 2005|11:02pm] |
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Of Montreal - Your Magic Is Working |
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Today i have been bored all day waiting to go out with Shannon. We eventually went to Chelsie's and watched I heart huckabees and then eternal sunshine of the spotless mind which are both two of my favourite movies. We also ate pizza, bread sticks, and cinnamon sticks which were good. I miss shannon a lot. We don't see each other nearly as much anymore. Sitting together and holding each other and watching movies was nice. I wonder what we will do tomorrow? These are the lyrics to the song i am listening to right now:
Baby your magic is working
I lose control of myself when ever you are near me
I feel myself changing
From a guy too cynical for love
into a blushing romantic
Oh honey I'd swim across the Atlantic
Just to be near to you I'm hopping like a kangaroo
Baby your magic is working
All of my friends think I'm mad
'cause I talk of nothing but you girl
How you've really changed me
From a guy thought too cynical for love
You've proven everyone wrong
Anywhere with you girl is where I belong
Everything is beautiful and you are the reason
Lately I've been so happy
Just holding you and gazing into your eyes
Like in a movie
You are a star...I mean a starlet
Listen the night we met I fell in love with you
Who'd have guessed, who'd have guessed
I'm in love, I'm in love
How you've really changed me
From a guy thought too cynical for love
Suddenly I feel as light as a butterfly
And wanting to give love another try
Everything is beautiful and you are the reason
Lately I've been so happy
Just holding you and gazing into your eyes
Like in a movie
You are a star...I mean a starlet
Listen the night we met I fell in love with you
Who'd have guessed, who'd have guessed
I'm in love, I'm in love
Baby your magic is working
My mirror's reflection is you
Looking coquette and smirking
Now your magic is working
Ooh, your magic is working
This band is amazing.
This song will be on the next mix Shannon!!!!!
Coquette - A woman who makes teasing sexual or romantic overtures. I didn't know what that word meant and it's in the song so i went to dictionary.com.
I'm helping Shannon fix her computer right now. It has a lot of spyware and adware. I sent her programs that said she has hijackers. lol. Hopefully they fix it.
I love you Shannon.
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| Shannon is Beautiful. |
[05 Jul 2005|11:35pm] |
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As Cities Burn - Blood Sucker PT. II |
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I love shannon. Shannon Shannon Shannon. She is beautiful and smart and funny. Tonight we might spend the night together. I hope we do because we never get to cuddle anymore. I love cuddling. The only time i really sleep well is when we cuddle. All other times i try to fake it with a body pillow but it doesen't work out and i never sleep. I miss Shannon. She no longer lives with me and i am terribly sad. Today Shannon used the word sparse. That word is odd.
sparse
: not dense; "a thin beard"; "trees were sparse"
My beard is sparse when Shannon has just finished trimming it.
Shannon is hot.
Warped tour sucks this year, not that i can afford to go anyway. As Cities Burn is this weekend i think. We need to go Shannon. I will try to find money. I miss you Shannon.
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[29 Jun 2005|12:54pm] |
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SHANNON IS HOT.
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[23 Mar 2005|12:47pm] |
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The Chinesse Stars - Cheap City Halo |
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I Love you Shannon Lynn Ross!!!!!! You are amazing and funny and cool. I am bored. Shannon, you should get home from school now. BRADLEY HATHAWAY AND SHELDON are playing at club adrian tonight, thats going to be fun. I Love SHANNON.
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[08 Jan 2005|01:59pm] |
They're tearing up streets again.
They're building a new hotel.
The Mayor's out killing kids to keep taxes down,
and me and my anger sit folding a paper bird,
letting the curtains turn to beating wings.
Wish I had a socket-set to dismantle this morning.
And just one pair of clean socks.
And a photo of you.
When you get off work tonight,
meet me at the construction site,
and we'll write some notes to tape to the heavy machines,
like "We hope they treat you well. Hope you don't work too hard.
We hope you get to be happy sometimes."
Bring your swiss-army knife, and a bottle of something,
and I'll bring some spraypaint and a new deck of cards.
Hey I found the safest place to keep all our tenderness.
Keep all our bad ideas. Keep all our hope.
It's here in the smallest bones, the feet and the inner-ear.
It's such an enormous thing to walk and to listen.
I'd like to fall asleep to the beat of you breathing
in a room near a truckstop on a highway somewhere.
You are a radio. You are an open door.
I am a faulty string of blue christmas lights.
You swim through frequencies.
You let that stranger in, as I'm blinking off and on and off again.
We've got a lot of time.
Or maybe we don't, but I'd like to think so, so let me pretend.
These are my favourite chords.
I know you like them too.
When I get a new guitar, you can have this one and sing me a lullaby.
Sing me the alphabet.
Sing me a story I haven't heard yet.
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[28 Dec 2004|09:53am] |
I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
That you've created
You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction
You will be the death of me
You will be the death of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted
Now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation
You will squeeze the life out of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Ooooohh
You will suck the life out of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
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